Sometime the last week of March, Yokota AB
I’m staring at my computer screen again. Zoning out to some website. I could be working on my Japanese, but I’m not. I could be working on ways to improve relations with the Japanese Rescue Coordination Center, but I’m not doing that either. In fact, I’m not doing much of anything. The week since I got back from Sendai is a watercolor painting sprayed down with a garden hose. Blurred 12 hour days are wearing me down and blending one into another. Luckily, I’ve been able to start squeezing in some gym time before and after work, but there really isn’t much time outside of that, eating, then sleeping.
The work is almost non-existent. Those who could be saved already have been, and the damn Japanese give us the Heisman every time we push proposals to put teams out to help with the body recoveries. Without much going on for Rescue, that doesn’t leave me with much to do. The 33rd is already letting it be known that what they are currently doing, ferrying generals to meetings and flying observation teams to radiation readings, is not going to get them ready for their upcoming Afghanistan deployment. Right now, you’re either on the ground doing actual humanitarian work, or you’re doing what I am: checking email and killing time on the web.
I didn’t sign up for this, I think.
Or did I?
My evening walks to and from work are long enough to provide time to ruminate. Tonight, doubts with my frustration cloud my head:
When you raised your hand, you didn’t tag on any qualifiers. All you said was,”Here am I; send me.” How you deal with what you’ve got is up to you.
As I’m approaching a corner, I see an airman on a bicycle ahead. I expect him to zip by me, but instead, he sees me, wobbles awkwardly, then jumps off his bike and on to the sidewalk in front of me. His bike crashes to the ground, and I assess the scene, a little stunned. Something is definitely about to happen, but I’m not sure what.
“Sir, are you a PJ?”
I regard him quizzically. “Yes, well, a Combat Rescue Officer, to be exact.”
He snaps to attention and salutes me. I return the salute and he shakes my hand.
“Thank you for what you do, sir. You guys are incredible.”
I thank him, then he re-mounts his bike, and wobbles off. It’s a bizarre exchange, to be sure, but as I amble towards the chow hall, it’s as if somebody turned on the lights in my head. I can choose to complain, or I can choose to make the most of my situation. Sounds trite, but it’s really as simple as that. It’s an inflection point; a place where I finally possess the awareness I need to inform my decisions moving forward and understand the implications of those decisions.
I resolve to make the most of things. Use the time I have to do something good, however small. Whatever I do over the coming weeks, it’s going to be full-speed.

Cherry tree blooms, General Officer Quarters, Yokota AB, Japan
Somewhere between Fussa (where Yokota AB is) and Fuchu (where the JASDF HQ is), 4 Apr 11
I budgeted about 3 hours to make this trip by foot and rail. For a normal Japanese person, this would probably be about a 45 minute affair, tops. But this gaijin isn’t getting anywhere fast; it took me close to 30 minutes to figure out the ticketing machines, I missed a stop twice, and was confounded by another ticket machine when changing lines. I’m on my way to the JASDF Rescue Coordination Center, and it’s no small miracle I’m even making the trip. It has taken me a week of bugging folks over the phone to even get them to agree to meet. Too busy, went the response. Maybe later. Then I was told I couldn’t get clearance into the secured building where the RCC resides. Of course, all this was done very politely.
Being a halfie has its advantages in this situation: I know the Japanese have a weakness for hospitality. Throw some food and/or drink into the equation, and they have to really dislike you to say no. So, I invited the RCC Director to have lunch with me, at his mess hall on his base. Lt Col Okahashi does eat lunch, right?
So, here I am, my uniform crammed into a backpack, getting my tourist on. For the past two weeks I’ve spent at least two hours a day on Rosetta Stone, working my Japanese. But I have little faith in my abilities as of yet. Today, I’ll be meeting with another Air Force officer who speaks it well, and will act as my linguist, which is good. But I see the writing on the wall – folks are re-deploying home left and right. The JOC has gone quite empty by comparison to where it was when I arrived just a few short weeks ago. I’m going to be on my own before too long.
I arrive at my last train station with about an hour to spare, walk a few blocks clutching my Google Maps printout, and I’m here:

Yep. 49 minutes. Or two hours...it's anyone's guess, really...
I meet at the gate with my guy, change into a uniform, then head to the RCC, where we wait. The RCC is located in the Air Support Command HQ building, and they have some cool stuff in the lobby, which I peruse.

The sofas from the aircraft used to transport the royal family. Not allowed to sit here.
Lt Col Okahashi is a thin man, shorter than me, and a few years older. His command of English is better than mine of Japanese, but despite this, a handy pocket translator he keeps nearby, and the fluency of my helper; we still stumble our way through conversation over a lunch of pork katsu at the officer’s mess. The details of what we discuss aren’t that important, but I learn a great deal about his situation. The RCC runs twelve hour shifts, but he’s the only director and essentially works about 20 hours a day and sleeps there. He hasn’t seen his family since before the tsunami, and he played a crucial role in the JASDF SAR response, sending hundreds of helicopter missions out in the first couple of days to rescue distressed Japanese. What we agree to in an hour is nothing earth-shattering: Japanese/English checklists that we both will work from in the event of a SAR mission involving any of the 10,000+ US military members currently supporting TOMODACHI; what our mutual responses will look like; and sharing IRC chat functions in order to have a real-time exchange of information. But for me, it feels monumental. As strange as it sounds, this is the first time these conversations have happened, and I’m driving the process from a dingy basement cubicle.
Lunch ends, and we go our separate ways. I reverse the process, changing back into civilian clothes, back-tracking out the gate to the train station. I put my headphones on, listen to some music on my phone – the newest E-40 and Jay-Z the soundtrack to my little adventure. Around me, the Japanese commute through their daily lives, glued at close-range to the screens of their phones. 9.0M earthquake, 14,000 dead or missing…and still the marked cultural stoicism pushes them forward.
I drop my yen into machines. Get on and off trains. Carry my pack. Purchase drinks from the ever-present machines. I walk back to work under a blustery, cool spring day, and wonder at it all.

Cherry blossoms in Fuchu